LABYRINTH called Relationship

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I am tired of playing this game. I longed only for happiness but, all I could ever get is the pain. I never wished to give up on anything and always believed in creating miracles but now, aeons later, here I am desperately waiting for one to happen. In this tricky and secluded place, I ran miles like an arrow that thwart the air only to find a way out, none worked. I reached to where I started, a loop of sorts. Not again I w ant to enter this twisty world. Please, I beg you, O Love! Please get me out for you’re the only light I could see, a miracle of sorts. I wished to be sharp as a knife but am as fragile as glass. I am a twig dangling here to survive the storm, hoping for the sun to shine. I am a fish out of an ocean, in this land, with nowhere to go I am seeking a storm so I can live.

I am tired of playing this game. I want to come out of this maze.

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Cul-De-Sac

At the end of that street, I have none to witness my pain.
None to support me when I needed them the most.
Here I am weeping a deluge all alone, seeking for some miracle to happen.
Then I realised, an isolated silence has the power to save a person and kill him at the same time.
But,
I am lost in this silence trying hard to come out,
I am lost in an endless path having no clue of how to escape it.
Then I realised, all I need to hear is your voice to come out of that street, a ray of light sorts.

I am lost in this Secluded Cul-de-sac!

Broken Soul

Ever since we broke up-

I’ve tried my best to ignore you but failed, as always;
You’re that person every guy loves to spend his precious moments with;
You’re that 3 am friend, everyone wish they have.

You’re sweet yet sharp,
Cute yet Hot,
Soft yet hard,
Innocent yet Smart,
Kind yet cruel,
Calm yet crazy,
Childish yet thoughtful,
An open book with many hidden pages,
A lovely path with a twist at every corner, a maze of sorts;

Without you,
Days have become longer, and nights darker;
With each walk I take running away from you, I end up moving a step closer;
It feels like a nightmare. A cute, little, sweet, lovely, and a horrendous nightmare;
I am Confused,
I am scared;
You’re a dream I want to keep dreaming,
You’re the sky I dreamt of soaring up like a Falcon;
You’re the path I wish to walk on, hand in hand, souls entwined, never feeling alone;
You’re the destination I am embarked upon;
Oh, my Luv! If getting away makes me the person I don’t want to be, I fight even harder to reach your love;

Life’s Fragile as Glass

Everything’s shattered
Diaries have become but pages,
Thoughts have become memories;
Souls became fragile,
The Pain became agile;
Dreamt to sour up the sky, but dug deep into the ground;
Dived seas to see pearls, found just stones;
Love is all that I wanted, hatred is all I found.
Embarked on a voyage in pursuit of happiness.
Ended up on an island with nowhere to go.
Looked at the sky for a ray of light, got hit by thunder instead.
All I yearned was your smile, instead, all I found was the pain.

Lone Wolf

 

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Witnessing the rise of the light in the lives of the dark.

In the midst of disputed era, I stand here answering the unanswered, solving the unsolved, in pursuit of the reason to stay awake. I am the lone ranger fighting a war between heart and mind but, whom to support?

The heart wants to love, the mind seeks power. Which is important?

I am confused.

A lone wolf running in the jungle to survive. 
A lone survivor finding a light in the burrow.
A dying soul fighting to live.

ADDICTION

You’re the honey I am addicted to taste;
You’re the wine I am addicted to drink;
You’re the drug I am addicted to smoke;
You’re the crest I am addicted to rise;

You’re the book I am addicted to read;
You’re the song I am addicted to sing;
You’re the poem I am addicted to rhyme;
You’re the spell I am addicted to cast;

You’re the ocean I am addicted to swim;
You’re the sky I am addicted to fly;
You’re the path I am addicted to walk;
You’re the maze I am addicted to get lost in;

You’re the sunrise I am addicted to behold;
You’re the star I am addicted to cherish;
You’re the place I am addicted to visit;
You’re the map I am addicted to travel;

You’re the house I am addicted to embellish;
You’re the gem I am addicted to Treasure;
And you’re the love I am addicted to fall in again and again;
Oh, my love! You’re such an addiction that I feel complete now.

—The Metal Soul

THE LONGEST JOURNEY

Bag check, Books check, Papers check. All set for my journey.

As the morning rays light my room & wake me up, I remember to get some papers signed. I jump out of the bed and get going. As I get dressed up, I could find my bike keys nowhere and mom’s busy getting my breakfast ready. I gave up on finding it just when my mom came to me asking to have breakfast before leaving and handed the keys to me, saviour of the day. I just checked my watch and it’s already 8’O Clock. God might have known how I managed to get on my bike at 8:02 am.

I get down the bike; there it is, my college, welcoming me with all its greenery. I enter to check if the faculty is available but all I can find are empty desks and the faculty timetables on it.

Damn! Now I have to wait for 3 hours to meet them and I have a train to catch up on.

I walk into the SAC (Student Activity Centre) to finish off some other works assigned to me. Being the coordinator of the college fest, I have to manage many things. There are lots of responsibilities to be handled and with the college fest fast approaching; there are hell lots of works pending.  Meeting juniors, assigning works to them, planning their activities, meeting in-charges, finalising events, attending selections and the list goes on…

I somehow manage to complete just a couple of works and after a patient wait, get the required signatures from the faculty. After a brief search for an alternative head, I find one. Finally, I check my watch and OMG!

It’s already 1’o’clock in the afternoon! This leaves me with 3 hours to catch the train!

 Clock’s ticking fast.

With the works done, I now had to rush back to home to pack my luggage.

Signatures- Checked; Keys- Checked; Time- Noted.

I rushed to the parking lot and God! I cursed myself for parking my bike at the other end. As time flew it seemed my bike’s in another world. I ran towards it and set off to home.

Time doesn’t want to be on my side, always. Just after parking my vehicle in the cellar, I couldn’t find my house keys. Now again, the curser in me woke up to curse me. One time,

Rahul, as always, drops me at the station on time and speeds off.

To my astonishment, I get to know that the train is running an hour late.

 One more hour I need to find something to pass it.

As I played ‘One Step Closer’ on my phone, I started travelling one step closer into my thoughts.

Thoughts on how my life was before getting into engineering and how it turned during the course of time. It all started with a sapling of ‘reaching the highest point in life’ in my heart. And that sapling transformed into a humongous tree of hope and determination. But that life isn’t interesting without loved ones in it. To make it look true, my friends and family always did their best. They’ve believed me in every aspect of life, the decisions I take and the path I choose. They suggest me advises but never force me to do them. Now, with the hope I lodged in my heart, I set a journey onto a different dimension, Armed Forces. Yes, I am going to give a test to enter the most respectable fields, Indian Army. With every thought, I was getting ‘one step closer’ to my dreams.

Just when I was lost in my thoughts, the announcement of my train arrival brought me back to this world. With everyone rushing out of the train and into the train simultaneously, I take my time and wait patiently and then get on.

Ah! The window seat. I specifically love this seat for it gives us an opportunity to witness the wonders of nature from behind those bars.

Life in a train is beautiful, should we consciously observe it. Many a time, in public places, we shut ourselves out. But, if we consciously try to observe all the things happening around, it is a wonderful experience.

There are many individuals here, on this train. Few, a happy couple heading to their hometowns. Few, busiest people on earth as they categorise themselves. Few, sad. Few, workers heading back to homes to their families. And here I am, on my journey to test my luck on entering the defence services. To write the CDS exam.

As the journey progressed, everyone around me started conversations about everything. All I witnessed there is the happiness everyone shared. There’s a couple with an infant travelling to attend a function. That smile of little baby won everyone’s hearts around. All of a sudden, he became a superstar of our compartment. On the other hand, there was a family leaving to attend an obituary of their loved ones. They were sad, but the atmosphere helped them to cope up.

There were few book addicts and soon later we became close as we shared the same addiction.

Though I started this journey alone, it now has many to accompany me to my destination and the best part is it taught me the biggest lesson: “No matter what comes ahead, give it a smile and Move on”

The same did the family attending obituary and the couple heading to a function.

Tiny Tale #1

And see,
I may seem envious of him for being in love with you or I may seem stupid waiting for your love, but I am actually happy that you’re happy. I always wanted to see you happy, even if it makes me feel sad, I don’t care because you’re my first priority and you being happy makes me feel satisfied. I don’t care what people say or bother; We can’t always expect our life to be served on a golden plate, sometimes ‘Conditions’ and ‘Hard Choices’ are added to the recipe of life to make it more spicy to devour. No matter how it knocks my door, all I ever wanted and care for is your happiness.
When you need someone to be on your side, I am here always for you.

If it’s called love, then I love you.

You are my ‘more than love’ I’d say because those 3 words can’t decide the level of caring I have for you.